Is there someone that could help me decide what’s real and what’s not? I’m having the toughest time trying to find someone or something that won’t let me down. Like, that’s all i ask for. To find love in the littlest places. Where’s my Romeo? I’ve found so many lost causes. Giving up seems like the best option. I’m 17 years old, loved twice, and lost both. That’s some Lifetime shit right there. This one guy lately has sparked something inside, it’s all so new again. But i’m doubting it. There’s a catch. There’s something that will fuck this over. I wish i had the ability to not doubt a thing, life would get easier that way. Damn my past, for not allowing myself to just say “fuck it, he’s perfect.” Because no one is perfect. And no one ever will be. Waiting to be saved gets tiring. So I’ll stick with my alc.. After all, “I’m better with a bottle.”

“All I Wanted.” -Paramore.